Dear School

Dear School,

I'm sure you get this a lot, but I just hate you to bits. It's good to know that everything I've ever been trained for the last three years of my life has not (in any way) been used in my final years of university. Also good to know that everything I've done up to this point, has less than 10% USE for me in my final year. I'm so unlucky when it comes to education, seriously considering to buying the lottery since I've been lucky in everything but education related. FML.

I've also started to have problems every corner in my life (except my love life if you minus long distance sitbacks) and I. am. completely. overwelmed. Finance is seriously on the lower part of my "to deal with" list. Oh yea *sarcasm*. Well as they say "what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger". I just wish half of these issues were actually MY issues and not someone elses that I have to deal with. >___>

On another news, holidays are coming up. Boxing day is coming up. And transit strike isn't bloody over. I have no issue for strikes or anything of the such. I DO have an issue when you decide to stop FOUR TOWNS (or one major city) just because you aren't being paid enough. Hey people, guess what? Doesn't make it right for you to stop people from working or going to school just because of "missing your own benefit". There's a lot of us to deem public transit as essential service, and a lot of us who are ALSO barely making enough to get by on a day-by-day basis. So go ahead and strike, just don't walk off the job that could affect thousands of people. Most of us are SICK of taking the taxi 4-7 times a week spending $50+ on a round trip a day JUST to make it back to break even on the trip (or in students cases, only to loose MORE money). Worst of all, NO REFUNDS on passes when people haven't been able to use the system for two whole weeks. WTF?! According to the news this is predicted to go on for a two months. All of this is so messed up.

I also don't think that my burnt out is curable. :< No matter how much help I seek, nothing is working.

/Rant

/Kills

Inb4 I do something right.

After taking a year off for personal reasons, I came back to school only to find that every piece of initiative I've took this year to be a "good student" is morally wrong or backfires. Not one project (and I wish I was being sarcastic) that I've done early was done right. Professors or the group organizers would tell us something vital to the project (that's not in the project sheet) about a or two week before its due which causes me to have to re-do it from scratch and resulting to more time and effort wasted (also the fact that no one else in class has finished it earlier). And every single time I finished a project, it was actually me thinking the project is due when it's not. Go me.

I'm also experiencing a group problem where one person rarely replies to emails while the other has put off all my emails about starting early until the last minute then proceeds to pin the blame on the fail project on me because APPARENTLY (without my knowledge) I was suppose to supply an analysis of our topic. I wasn't even aware that the others weren't gathering information. I wasn't aware that we even had a TOPIC CHOSEN until last minute. I wasn't even AWARE that each person had a role. And why wasn't I aware. Because all the emails I've gotten were one sentences telling me off about the issue. Same person who is blaming me, have had their email being bounced back every time I sent her my information for that week. I'm not saying I'm completely innocent. Yes, I should of kept my first assumption that NO ONE was going to do the work and finish off all the information and just putted it together. I should of analyzed it and just did it instead of HOPING that my group members would do a GROUP project. I should of kept my mouth shut. But I didn't because I DID NOT MORALLY FEEL RIGHT ABOUT PASSING ON SOMEONE ELSE'S WORK. I'm in school to learn. Not to ride on people to my degree.

I find it befitting that the year I plan to graduate is 2012, the same year for "the end of the world" stuff.

Made two guides for synthing for SSSU that I'm contemplating on putting one of them up onto Aeria's forum (regarding presets of Demon Difficulty via Synthing in the game). Inb4 I get banned for helping Aeria (like everyone else LOL).

Yes, I have synthing in my head again. orz *needs to find a new hobby*

[School] It's a Love-Hate relationship

My group members for my presentation tomorrow are driving me up the wall. One of them tells me to ask for days off the whole effing week just to work on our presentation. Of course we ended up arguing (School is more important. But you do know, so is paying the bills -___-). Now she's making all these "meet up" that don't even last because no one did their work (one of them was too lazy to) due to school, family, extracurricular, work, etc. And now, one of the members can't make it and the whole group doesn't want to meet up now. Tomorrow is the release of Call of Duty: Black Ops so I would of been staying extra late tonight setting up but because of tomorrow's meeting I need to leave early because she made a HUGE deal about me working. Not my fault that no one wanted to meet on weekends, early mornings or late at nights. Why am I the one being screamed at when I am okay with that but when everyone else has a day off, and I work, I get yelled at.

God. I hate human.

And go to the effing meeting boy. -____-

On the other hand, Marching set on Sera watching Gus train expertise while doing the Monkey dance is win.

Sera: Ohaider!
Gusoku: D:

I don't know if you guys ever noticed. But Marching Set has your belly button showing. ISN'T IT EPIC?! My clannies know I'm a Yaoi fan and being one of the few girls active in clan, everyone one knows that "if it's gay, Sera MUST have." :D Don't you just love my principles?

And the cosplay contest has been announce! Artful won! YAAAAAAAAY~ I was really hoping she did because her entry was very well done. :3 I told you guys my crappy entry wouldn't even make it. Not with my garbage execution and uncompleted set (would of been sad if I won T-T). I still need to find a jeweler in my school for it (scared to venture to the Art department as its creepy there ;A; ) but I only entered for the cross regenerator I (didn't want to pay 11$ bucks for it LOL) for my RE: Maki Necklace. xD

Also got to see Bunbun's Tao Tie close up. She has killed him the last time I saw him T-T Poor Tao tie...



And again for market QQ-ers, your desired price =/= to common market price. TYVM. If everyone is selling black weapon DT for 4-5mil, and you tell me that its market price is 2mil, you can GTFO. Buying List is starting to be BS to me, buyers are buying half the price of what sellers are selling it for. QQ about how they can't get an item cause its "overpriced" but mainly the issue is that your buying it too "underpriced". I cater to people who are looking for items that are 500K off (for cheaper prices) and 1-3mil off for more expensive items. That's customer service. Not 2 mil for an item that's 5mil. If you ask nicely too, I wouldn't mind, unless the item is high in demand (like marching headsets) since it's only fair to those who REALLY wants it and willing to pay for it (that's determination and shows how much a person wants it imo). But that's just how I feel about the market.

I have been playing Kitsu. FINALLY LEVEL 30 :D Though I'm having a dilenma with one of my characters name. I deleted him to make him into a medium build but I didn't realized there was a time gap wait for re-claiming a name (I don't get the point of this but ok....) and now I'm fretting whether I get the name or not (It's TYPOGRAPHICALLY correct therefore it bugs me if I use an altered name of it). I'm such a loser. *headdesk*

I failzzzzzz

About half way through, I just realized my design was placed too high on the jacket. x____________________________________X /headdesk

So I've now entered uber panic mode. Not only did I run out of time because of crazy man that came/stalked to our house, school, work, and job interview; I just finished pinning half my designs in the back jacket of the abyss coat. I ran into an uber problem. It's been placed too high and about half of it is already hand sewed in so redo-ing it is pretty much out of the question due to the lack of time (I have a test on my books on Tuesday DDDDDDDDDDDD: ) So I'm just typing out this pointless post for panic reasons. o.o I can't believe I misjudge by that much. X____X ARGGGG!!! I might have to bs the rest of the patterns for aesthetics reason and fix it after Anime North. GOD, GTFO ME!! D: This is what I get for only sewing once a year now x.x

In about 7 hours from now, I also have work. Tomorrow is Super Mario Galaxy 2 for the wii (release day). So like, no sleep + crazy work day = FML I'm so not living tomorrow. x_____X Then all of monday I gotta FINISH all my readings and then study. And the best part is, out of the entire week I've only procrastinated 3 hours. It's like Time just fell out of my pocket this week. When I start my new job in June, I might as well just get trampled on by squirrels. /clones self

/panic

Yay to pointless post o.o so like if I'm not online til after May D: You now know why?

Essays are hard...

... when you have too much to write about.

So I've started summer school and I must admit: It's been a while since I had an awesome prof. He knows how not to bore the class and throws in jokes that we all can understand. So I spent a good chunk of after school to present, reading and currently writing my essay. I mean sure, essays can be hard if you have no idea where to go for information. But for me, the essay is most difficult to write is when you have to write about something with large amounts of important information within 500 words. T-T I rather write about boring 10+ pages of Art History now...

As for Megaten, I haz finished Arty. :DDDDDDD She does avg of 800-900 heals (I don't think anyone exceeds 500 hp in PvE in this game... >.>) And can pretty much T/SS with high percentage. The only thing I need to do is get more int and luck for Sera, just cause. :D I don't even synth that often anymore, LOL. But I'll be away from MT for a while though T-T I has two books to finish by next week and after today, possibly a schedule for the second job and I still need to find time to do my cosplay... and somehow fit in 3 weeks worth of homework and reading so I can be ahead of my class. D: Yea, I don't think I can fit in sleep in there... lol I don't even think I'll be outside of the hotel during Anime North. I'll probably be typing away at my homework in the hotel. T-T buuu there goes my so called vacation.

I'll post screenshots of stats when I get the time. I just didn't do it cause I made a stupid rebirth mistake and kewkewed for a week or two. So you'll get to see the stats of a level 90 Arty in Sowilo and Ingwaz comparison (same rebirths tho).

And on another news: I haz not one, but two cookiez o.o f33334444rrrr me clannies! D:

PS: To make this not a pointless post (which it has now become one <--- breaking) I've been working on a few builds that just needs to be grind. Two of which are Pvp purposes (god I'll be murdered in pvp). I have a third and fourth character, but I haven't decided which to expertise chain I want to try out.